Valentine's Day 2007: A Reflection on Being Single

I realize Valentine's Day was yesterday, but reflection can't occur until after the fact.

It was yet another Valentine's day where I was determined not to let being single get to me. I resolved to celebrate and pursue other forms of love such as bortherly love or neighborly love. For the most part it worked. My mood was rather amiable all day even though Curt was in Colorado. (we're still not officially a couple). I gave a few co-workers Valentines and received a few e-mails and numerous text messages from friends, many of whom I was surprised to hear from. Curt did send me a text from Denver which was nice but not as much as I'd hoped.

All in all it was another ordinary day that I felt must somehow be made extraordinary- as commercialism instructs us to do. I left work early in order to buy a Russian-English dictionary and a car wash before having time to bathe and study Russian. With 4 cars ahead of me in was a good 35 minute wait in line for the wash but it was badly needed so I endured.

Everything seemed to go according to plan. I picked up Svetlana, my Russian instructor, and took her home after class. We were supposed tog have tea together but I postponed it until next week because I wanted to hang out with my usual Wednesday crowd (all males) and be doted upon because I craved male attention and I knew where to get it.

Dustin, the assistant manager of the bowling alley, gave me a teddy bear with chocolates. Yea! I got a Valetine present! Then I treated the guys to some french fries and some drinks. They treated me to drinks. After bowling, most of us went to the Parkside lounge to finish watching the Wild lose to the Canucks in OT. I didn't really want to hang out in a bar but instead was waiting to go hot tubbing. Dave, who owns the hot tub, wanted to stay at the bar for awhile.

About midnight, I found myself in a hot tub with 3 of my guy friends. For some reason the other girls who were supposed to arrive, didn't. About 90 minutes later I went home. It was a bit awkward being the only girl. So a rather ordinary day but it was fun I guess.

Am I glad I'm single? I don't mind it. Actually I find the thought of a prospective monogamous relationship kind of scary. I've always enjoyed my freedom. Me in a hot tub with 3 guys wouldn't have happened if I weren't single. There's a non-pressure of not having to care about someone else, yet there's a pressure of not having anyone, too. This probably doesn't make alot of sense yet I don't think I've ever claimed ot have much sense. :)

I don't think the day could really have been made much better by not being single so for now i'm content with singleness. Besisdes, I'll never know when I'll getto celebrate my last Valentine's day being single. A lot can happen in a year..........