Dinner and a Movie: The 4th Date

As many of my friends have taken to converting their blogs into baby blogs, for awhile CBAC will be geared more towards a dating blog, though with probably alot more randomness in between.

Last night- after nearly a month apart- Curt and I FINALLY got together to hang out. Both wanting to avoid the cold weather, we decided to hang out at my place. We're both so easy going and polite it's hard for us to make decisions. I prefer the man make all the decisions because that's less that I have to make. While Curt says he doesn't mind making decisions, he sure seems to find a way of deferring them to me, then I defer back until I get frustrated and just make the decision.

We finally decided on ordering in a pizza for dinner. It was my first on-line ordering experience as I ordered a large pepperoni- 1/2 mushroom pizza from Papa John's on my way out of the office. Since this date was planned very last minute I rushed home to shower and clean my entire apartment which fortunately wasn't in too bad a state to begin with.

Just as I finished the dishes, Curt arrived. Although I have looked forward to seeing him for a month, there was also an awkwardness in being with him after a long absence. We sat on the couch and talked about his job and how things are going. Next week he's flying to Denver to see about taking a management position with Qwest. This would of course mean he relocate to Denver which caused even more trepidation on my part as the night progressed.

It's hard enough for me to guard my heart around men. I'm so open with it-at the beginning at least- but I don't want to fall for someone who may be leaving soon. Not that it would be the end of the world, but I know I'm not the kind of person to handle long-distance relationships well nor do I think I should rush to move to Denver myself.

I've been looking to leave Minnesota for several years and so far haven't found a good enough reason to. Denver was one of my possibilites and I do have other friends there, but I would need to move out there for more than to just follow a guy I've sort of been waiting for, for 5 years.....not that I was really "waiting" for him but sort of....

So throughout the evening last night I tried to be affectionate yet keep a distance. I discussed my revelation with my best girlfriend that after watching "Pride an Prejudice" this past weekend, I noticed that women avoided eye contact with prospective suitors in order to maintain better composure around them.

It's true that when a guy looks deep into my eyes, I crumble and all my vulnerablilites surface. I can't help it. So I tried to avoid eye contact and it worked for the most part. The pizza soon arrived and Curt picked out "Hitch" for us to watch as he'd never seen the whole thing. I think it's a great date movie.

As we sat down with our pizza, he gave me a quick smooch on the lips and further on in the movie he asked me if I could tell about us by the way he kissed me- or something to that effect. It was in response to the line in the movie "where 8 out of 10 women believe the first kiss will tell them everything they need to know about the relationship......"

When the movie was over we talked a bit more, but I honestly couldn't think of any conversation topics. The tension was growing in the room and I felt more awkward. That is until he leaned over and full on kissed me.....and kissed me.....and kissed me. After some amount of time (which felt like 2 seconds) he said he'd stay and kiss me all night, but he had to be to work at 6am. So I told him to get out (jokingly) and he kissed me all the way out the door. It was sweet......not like we were all over each other or anything. He was a perfect gentleman and promised me we'd see each other again (in less than a month this time).

He alluded to feeling a bit apprehensive about jumping into anything since his divorce is VERY recent and I told him I don't want to be a rebound girl. He said he doesn't want me to be either and that he's waited a very long time for us to be together in a right way. So of course my head's been spinning ever since and I've literally been skipping through the office today. However, in the back of my mind I keep thinking about Denver.

I see no reason why he wouldn't both get and take the job out there. This is forever my luck with guys. I either find very bad guys or none at all, and if chance to find one I might have something with- he leaves either by relocation or to the hereafter. (My 1st boyfriend died in a car accident).

For this week I'm going to enjoy my elated state though and let next week worry about itself.

Now I just have to focus om bowling this afternoon since my team was swept by the last place team last week. I feel like I might bowl well. Then I have a lot of Russian studying to do.