This World is Seriously Messed Up

It's been a slow day at work and as usual I've been reading the usual round of blogs.
Sometimes I wish I was more witty and funny with my own blog but whenever I inted to be, it turns out to be the opposite most of the time.
For wit and humor I generally need to play off someone else.

Today I read 2 very disturbing stories. Not like one can't read disturbing stories in the news every day but somehow reading through the blogosphere seems different. I read the blogs linked on my friends' blogs, and read their links and I find that every day I read about the lives of complete strangers to me yet I feel I know their lives and am connected to them because I read their joys and struggles every day.

So first disturbing story was from a blog by Rachel who goes by MayDay Girl. She's been struggling with infertility and had blogged about her process of going through failed adoptions and now through invitro fertilization. She's 26- which makes me feel old- but it's been a good story. She's just found out she's finally pregnant but has a log road ahead of her.

Stories like this are close to my heart because with all the feminine medical stuff I've gone through I wonder, nay worry about my own fertility. I used to be so paranoid that I'd get pregnant on the first try, but after not being so careful about 6 times in my life I didn't conceive. (And for my situation that's probably a good thing- and it was a while ago)

Anyway, Rachel posted 2 stories today. The first was about a guy who's pregnant!
Yes, this has indeed become a messed up world. This "guy" is actually a transgender; a woman who became a man but who got married to a woman and "he" decided he would carry their child.
This person really does look like a guy and I think how horribly messed up that is.

No I'm not insensitive but if you want to be a mom, be a woman. I feel so bad for that kid already and the confusion of that upbringing. I'm not here to judge but it doesn't take a genious to see that it's not cool to have that kind of family system. I would NEVER want my own child one day to be exposed to such a situation- at least as a child. I just hope it works out for them.

The other story was about another girl who underwent invitro and she was pregnant with twins. She was just over halfway there when yesterday she went into premature labor and delivered her twins who both subsequently died.
I couldn't imagine it......

It's one thing to be infertile. It's another to think you've overcome infertility and start letting yourself get excited and prepared and have it all snatched away.
It aroused a new fear in me. Should I one day get pregnant, I think I might live every day of the pregnancy in terror for all the things that could go wrong.

As the saying goes: "It's possible to do everything right and till lose".

Anyway, my heart goes out to all.
Hopefully there will be good news on the horizon.

Yesterday's bowling scores: 177, 163, 169- or something like that. Next week is the last week of Tuesday bowling already!!!