Post-Easter Chick Bits

Easter has come and gone already. My relatives made a point to say that Easter won't be this early again for about 220 years.....so nothing I need ot worry about.

It just bums me out though that now there's no holiday in April- other than April fools day but that's not really celebrated anymore, is it?

The weekend passed with very little excitement. Saturday It snowed-again. I worked early in the morning, helped Deb move and went to Andover for the Lawrence celebrations.
--I got lost on the way there.
--No one wanted to do the egg hunt so we didn't have one.
--I had my first piece of meat in 6 1/2 weeks- a tiny piece of ham.
--After lunch I watched a Doctor Who episode and went to bed by 9.

Sunday I woke up at 8am- without an alarm!!! This idea to go to my old church popped in my head so I figured I'd better go. I met my mom, sis, and her fiance there.
After I couldn't take it anymore. I stopped at White Castle for some sliders and fries and brought them to my parents' where mom and I watched "Enchanted". (Dang catchy songs. Can't get them outta my head. Why Alan Menken? Why???!!!)

About 1 I got to the Fleischhacker celebration where I had another pice of ham. The sliders were wreaking havoc on my intestines. The cramps were so bad but nothing would come out.

Not feeling well and still tired I went home, cleaned the kitchen and finished watching Doctor Who- Inferno and was again in bed by 9.

Yesterday nerves were getting to me as the time for my biopsy got nearer. I remembered the dream I had the previous week that I'd forgotten to take Advil and the pain was excruciating. So I made darn sure I took 4 Advil on the way.
The procedure didn't take long. I've had it done twice before which I told the doc and she said "well not exactly like this".

I thought "um...What???!" She said the cells were further up my cervix so it might pinch just a bit more.

Um......WHAT???!!

But what I like about my doc is she talks through the whole thing so you don't let your mind roam in terror envisioning the worst possible scenarios.

One thing about this procedure is there's a mandatory pregnancy test. I'm like "Do I have to?"
Apparently I had to. I kicked myself for not remembering and having used the bathroom before I left work.
The doc and I talked about that- how one time she actually had to tell someone she couldn't do the procedure because they were pregnant. Talk about a way to find out.

Then I went on about how if my result was positive there would be some kind of immaculate conception going on......

Anyway, it was over fast. It pinched and cramped and was unpleasant but no lasting pain. Whew!
I hope the results are positive because I'd rather not have to be referred to an OB/GYN for further testing. I should know the next course of action by Friday.

And that's the excitement of my life...... I'm just stepping back from the world and from people for a little bit; must've been more burnt out than I thought and just need a long re-coup time.

Saturday I've got Bill's 40th to attend. Will see how I handle that social function.

Admittedly I'm feeling a little defeated in life. Like the realization that door of opportunity are starting to close and I'm getting older.
At 30 most people say I'm not old- because 30's like the new 13 or something- but I definitely don't feel 13 or even 21 anymore.

I feel like I'm always in some sort of transition and that if I settle down in one spot I might have stability but I'd also see the rest of the doors of opportunity closing on me.
Maybe that's why I needed to go to Easter Sunday service because that's exactly the topic that was preached. I'm still reflecting on that though.

Lately most days I feel like an old cat lady- except one who doesn't have cats :)
I feel very not-so put together. I seriously thought about buying a dog today so I'd have something more than plantsto take care of and something that would love me back.

I think loneliness might be starting to get to me but summer's almost here and maybe then I'll emerge from my hermitage.

Happy Tuesday!