The Daily Life

Since I've been living a very secluded, simple life lately I find there's not much to write about.
My days consist of work, bowling, and some TV-but mostly I just go home, watch an episode of Doctor Who and go to bed.
This week it's been classic Doctor Who-mostly the Davison era- with a little UNIT thrown in.
I had/have a big crush on Sergeant Benton. :)

Weekends I like to catch CSI or Law and Order marathons -but it sucks that they replay the episodes after only 4 or 5.

Monday I brought in cookies and cupcakes for my co-workers and on everyone's desk I put a cut-out shamrock with a handwritten Irish blessing in gold writing and a green buttermint.
It was actually a feeling of pride today as I walked around the office and saw that many of my co-workers had pinned their shamrocks up in their cubes or on their computers.

I think our office is so starved for morale.
It's a small company. We spend all day, every day together and we don't know eachother that well. I'm no better. I don't like to associate with the girls because I HATE the gossip circuit-which is alive and well in any workplace- and most of the guys are married and I stay away there, but I occasionally have a convo with my old boss and with the one single guy in the office (who's HOT by the way :) and a sweetheart.)

For 4 hours a day I stay focused and get my daily work done. The other 4 hours I try to look busy while finding something to do that doesn't make me look like I'm slacking off.....like blogging.

I no longer go out every night. I'm not in small group this year, nor have I attended house church. I'm not dating or hooking up with anyone. I'm not even hanging out with anyone-save for a group of non-Christian friends I inhertited from my first boyfriend who died almost 6 years ago. Even when I hang out with them I sit alone and just observe people.

I have nothing to say......well nothing to talk about at least. I'm a person who typically only speaks when spoken to. Sometimes I feel very socially awkward, sometimes I'm a social butterfly....it's hit or miss.

However, in this year of solitude I've grown more relient on God. I hope I can maintain that as I re-enter the social stream. I don't think it's good to be alone, but it is good to take a step back once in awhile before going forward.
I have a lot to heal from. My teen years were pretty mellow. It was my 20s that were very stormy.
Now I stand at the precipice waiting to cross over to my 30s and to see if I am destined to be joined with someone, or to live life alone. In the next 10 years my life will undoubtedly change very drastically. In my 20s it took some getting used to my younger cousins popping out kids from whatever person they were with that night.

Now the transition comes into my nuclear family. My sister's getting married. In the next 10 years will the other 3 of us do the same?
What will it be like to have nieces and nephews? I've never been particularly close to kids because they're never around me.

Will I have my own kids?
Which family members will I lose? Most of my relatives are still alive including almost all my grandparents. But they're all 80 or pushing 80 and probably won't be around much longer.

I wonder what my life will be like on March 19th, 2018..........where I'll be standing at the precipice of 40.

Will I still be at H. Brooks and Company?- hopefully I'll be a nurse by then or nurse practitioner.....

Looking back 10 years ago, March 19th, 1998 I was working in the tomato room at H. Brooks and Company. I was finishing up my 2nd year of college (holy crap time flies!!!!)
I had never dated, never been kissed- and I wanted that more desperately than anything else. :)
I didn't have hardly any friends. I didn't know Troy or Deb or Jen or Steve. None of the people -save for Ann- that are in my social life now were in my life 10 years ago......that seems weird.

In 1998 I'd never been outside the country- well to Canada but there's not much difference there.
I'd never been on a plane, never sang karaoke, wow.......I guess I have done alot in the last 10 years.

It's kind of scary to think what tomorrow may bring, but exciting too.
I wonder if I'll be more concise and coherent in blogging in the next 10 years....... Let's hope so, huh? :)